Author’s Note
Sorry to keep you waited for so long.. A part of this update is slightly mature... and it will be posted on my blog.. I changed the song for this last part.. I’m not sure if it goes with the scene.. but I fell in love with this song and it really inspired me to write this last part.. If you think I should change the song to the old one please let me know, I won’t mind..
This update is on both IF and my blog.. so please do come back to IF to let me know how it was.. I took a really long time to write this part and I hope you’ll like it!
Chapter 3A, 3B and 3C – Dedicated to Lalarukh
Khushi: And when you need
to be loved??.. you never needed permission for this.. main sirf tumhara hoon..
to apna ke liye kis baat ki permission... (Im only
yours.. so what permission you need for your own...)
Arnav raised his eyes while
Khushi held his hands and brought it back to her waist.. Moving forward, she
kissed the corners of his lips.. her one hand on the button of his wet shirt..
Bringing her other hand to his face, Khushi caressed his cheeks lightly with
the back of her hands while she kissed his skin down his jaw line.. and
whispered...
Khushi: Let me love you
tonight Arnav!
And she looked into his
eyes.. Both breathing loudly while the dhak dhak of their hearts became one..
their lips brushed each other while with one hand, Arnav pushed her long silky
hairs to her back revealing her perfect cleavage.. Arnav gazed at her with an
overwhelming feeling for a moment and suddenly pressed his lips against
Khushi's lips.. Slowly he pushed his tongue inside her mouth and in no time
khushi began responding with the same eagerness.. their tongue entwined with
each other... Arnav's free hands moved from her waist to her back pulling
Khushi more into him...As he felt her heaving breasts against his chest, Arnav
realized that his shirt was unbuttoned and he pulled back from the kiss.. He
stared into the confused eyes of Khushi and said with concern...
ASR: Are you sure you want
to do this?
A smile curved on her lips
as a sign of approval and Khushi crashed into his chest while her arms went
into his open shirt as she hugged him saying...
Khushi: I trust you Arnav..
i trust you!
Khushi’s face hidden into
Arnav’s chest.. Arnav forced her face up so as to fix into her eyes and said
with all his heart..
ASR: I love you Khushi.. I
love you more than anything in this world.. Don’t ever go away from me..
The tears brimming into his
eyes proved the sincere words of his heart! Khushi lifted her hands to his
cheeks and wiped off his tears.. Leaning forward, Arnav cupped her face and
placed a kiss on Khushi’s forehead while the latter closed her eyes...His lips
moved down to her nose, her cheeks.. leaving tender kisses all the way down to
her cleavage.. Her breasts heaved in and out while her head leaned back feeling
his lips on her bare skin.. No doubt that she was nervous but she wanted to
surrender.. to give herself to her Arnav.. giving him that one last right which
he was deprived of.. To possess her.. to make Khushi a part of Arnav and Arnav
a part of Khushi forever!
ASR: Look at me Khushi..
As Arnav ordered her, she
obliged and instantly their eyes locked! They stared at each other for long..
Conscious of his fingers touching delicately her skin and playing with the only
knot holding on the cloth to her body, Khushi gulped a breath.. And as he began
to untie the knot, her heart raced and in nervousness she stood and moved
aside.. Arnav’s eyes followed her steps and a loving smile adorned his face..
Her back facing Arnav, Khushi held on to the cloth! She closed her eyes..
trying to drive away that nervousness eating her when suddenly she felt his
hands on her waist.. and he whispered..
ASR: Trust me! I’ll never
hurt you.. I promise!
Arnav moved
closer.. pushing Khushi’s hairs away, he placed a tender kiss at the crook of
her neck... Hugging her from behind, his hands moved to the knot and slowly he
began untying it.. Shifting his gaze to her face, assuring himself that she
wanted him to do this.. Khushi opened her eyes and looked at Arnav’s face by
her side.. The love in his eyes.. the care in his touch! She began to relax and
rested her back onto his chest! Without breaking the eye lock, she moved her
lips towards his..
His one hand
on the left side of her waist while the other untying the knot, Arnav took her
lips into the most longing kiss.. He sucked onto her lips and gently pushed his
tongue inside her mouth.. Their tongues twirled together and meanwhile the
cloth slid down her body to the floor exposing her bare body in only her
panties... Khushi began turning her body towards Arnav without detaching their
lips away from each other while his hands caressed her skin to her waist.. her
arms made her way around his neck while his hands rested on her bare waist.. Khushi deepened the kiss as she pulled him
more into her.. Her naked breasts fondled onto his hard chest and she felt his
lower part bulging in between her thighs.. As they gasped for air, both pulled
back from the kiss but kept staring at each other.. The nervousness vanished...
no fear.. no shyness! He wanted to love her as much as she wanted to love him..
In a swift, Arnav bowed down and swept her off her feet.. Her one hand around
his neck while her right hand holding on to his collar.. He walked near to the
fire and delicately laid her body down.. Her face glowing to the light of the
fire, Khushi stared into Arnav’s eyes as he took off his shirt and threw it
away.. His gaze moved down from her face to her breasts, waist, her cute cotton
panties.. Her long legs were beautiful, he thought!
And he leaned
down.. adjusting his body onto her.. covering her naked skin with care, making
sure not to hurt her! He kissed her forehead.. touched her face.. pecked her
lips.. sucked her earlobe while his hands trailed down to her soft breasts.. He
cupped her breasts as he blew kisses down her neck to her cleavage.. He never
touched her that way.. and this was as new for both of them! His touch on her
perfect formed breasts, his fingers found the peak of her sensitive nipples and
Khushi closed her eyes when she felt his wet tongue circling around her
nipple.. She let a moan escaped from her mouth and unconsciously Khushi parted
her legs wrapping Arnav’s body while he whispered against her skin..
ASR: I love
you so much Khushi..
Moving up,
Arnav stared into her eyes..
ASR: Look at
me Khushi...
Her deep gaze
into his eyes full of love.. At one look, Khushi knew lust was never here.. It
was only love.. deep love! True love.. His hands teasing her breasts, they began
to move down her belly to the elastic of her cotton panties.. Gently he pushed
his fingers under her panties and felt her femininity for the first time.. He
let his hands rub the bud of her womanhood as he followed each of her
expressions... He could felt her arousal increasing more and more.. Her hips
moving slowly under his body.. A smile curved on Arnav’s lips as he admired that
first time pleasure on Khushi’s face.. She was relaxed.. stressfree.. just laid
into the arms of her man.. surrendering herself completely! His fingertips
felt, touched and teased her.. pleasuring her.. driving her to esctasy..
without any penetration.. And Khushi whispered...
Khushi: Kiss
me!
Arnav obliged
instantly.. Pressing his lips against hers.. Khushi parted her lips and his
tongue pushed into her mouth.. Their kiss became more deeper while their
tongues danced together.. She let her arms went around his neck and ran her
fingers into his hairs.. Arnav’s hands slipped away of her panties and he
gripped her waist tightly while slowly Khushi pulled him more into her as they
twirled together without breaking the kiss..
Their legs
entwined with each other..Khushi was now laying on Arnav’s hard chest. She
pulled from the kiss and stared lovingly at Arnav for a few seconds.. She then kissed his cheeks sensually.. She brushed
lightly his lips.. Eyes locked! Pecking his lips again and again.. They felt so
special in each other’s arms.. Her fingers roamed on his face while a smile
adorned her face.. His way of looking at her.. and that unique way he touched
her, she felt like driven away to heaven.. their little world of paradise..
which she had been dreaming since they are together.. Her hands traced further
down the lines of his shoulders, his muscles.. She was aware that Arnav was
strong from the way he holds her, but feeling his naked body.. touching him
purposefully just to feel his manly figure.. It was just another different
feeling! A feeling of love and passion for this one man!
Slowly Khushi
let her hands lowering further down his abs while she captured his lips into a
long passionate kiss.. and Arnav responded immediately, his hands moved to her
naked back so as to pull her more into him.. The bulge in his jeans increasing,
Khushi grinned at his lips when she felt the hardness between her thighs.. Her
hands began to trail down and rested on his belt.. Slowly she tried to unbuckle
Arnav’s belt when suddenly she was twirled around... Flustered at the sudden
movement, their lips detached and Khushi gazed at Arnav in confusion! Arnav was
now on top of her.. still holding her tightly, his chest stuck to her breasts,
he stared into her eyes and placed a kiss lightly onto her right cheek.. and
said..
ASR: You are
beautiful!
Arnav smiled at Khushi and
looked to the other side.. Extending his arms, he grabbed the white cloth
laying down few steps away.. and he looked at the confused gaze of Khushi when he
lifted up half of his body slightly and covered Khushi’s naked figure with the
cloth! Her eyes wide open asking for answers.. Arnav smirked and approached his
lips to her forehead.. and he said while staring into her almond eyes!
ASR: Abhi nahin Khushi!
Abhi nahin... (Not now Khushi! Not now...)
And Khushi replied
anxiously...
Khushi: Kyun?? (Why??) You said you were craving for me, right?
Arnav brushed her hairs..
and said in a soft voice..
ASR: Yeah.. ofcourse I am!
But I want you only when you’ll be ready for this!
And Khushi protested
irritatingly!
Khushi: But I am ready!
Arnav replied amusingly..
ASR: Acchha.. Aur tum kabse
mujhse jhoot bolne lagii hai! (Really.. And since when
you started lying to me!)
Khushi: Mein... (I...)
And instantly Arnav placed
his fingers on her mouth as he said..
ASR: Chup... bhilkul chup! (Quiet.. just stay quiet!)
Her soft lips formed a pout
under Arnav’s fingers!
ASR: Chahe tum kuch na
kaho.. mein tumhara dil aur maan ki avaz sun sakta hai khushi.. (Even if you don’t say anything.. I can hear your heart and
conscience voice Khushi..) And I know you are not ready for this.. You
are barely 17 baby and I don’t mind waiting for you for a lifetime.. After all
you are only mine.. and I know that I’ve got a right on you.. I certainly don’t
need to do this to claim this right! I already possess you Khushi.. you belong
to me.. your heart belongs to me.. your every breath is mine.. Then what do I
need more.. I’ll wait for you..
Her eyes brimming with
tears, she said chokingly..
Khushi: to phir... yeh sab
kyun kiya.. wo.. (so.. why you did this.. wh..)
And Arnav interrupted..
ASR: I just wanted you to
relax.. and..
As he stopped his words,
Khushi said..
Khushi: And?
Arnav gave her a faint
smile and said lowly..
ASR: You are the only one I
have Khushi.. my girl, my love, my life.. My
Family! And I just can’t bear any awkwardness between us.. It just kills
me.. your awkwardness makes me feel as a stranger... I’m really sorry.. I
should have not shouted at you...
And Khushi suddenly pulled
him to her.. their lips crashed with each other.. Their tongues met.. Her arms
went around his neck.. Her tears streamed down her cheeks.. She only wished to
stay like this all her life.. with that guy.. As they pulled back, Khushi
brushed her fingers in Arnav’s hairs and said..
Khushi: How can you be so
good?
A smile curved on Arnav’s
lips..
ASR: I’m not good.. I’m
just selfish..
Khushi: Matlab? (you mean?)
ASR: If you are hurt just a
little.. it hurts me terribly.. my world seems like shaking when you are in
pain!
They both stared at each
other for long.. Finally Arnav laid next to her and said...
ASR: Come here...
Khushi placed her head on
his chest, listening to his heartbeats.. Half of her body laying on his body..
ASR: Tune sab kuch diya
mujhe.. khushiyan, zindagi jeene ka maksat! (You gave
me everything.. Happiness, a reason to live life!) Just one last thing...
Arnav pulled the cloth
covering her back... and said..
ASR: Meri amaanat.. aur yeh
akri amaanat mein sahi waqt par leloonga.. Tab tak usse sambhar ke raklo.. Mere
liye!! (My possession.. and this last possession, I’ll
acquire it at the right time.. till then, take care of it.. For me!!)
Khushi lifted her head and
fixed into his eyes..
Khushi: Mein vaada karti
hoon.. tumhari amaanat mein sambhar ke raklogi! I promise! Yeh sirf tumhari
rahogi.. Tumhari Amaanat.. Arnav ki amaanat! (I
promise.. I’ll take care of your possession! I promise! It will always be only
yours.. Your Possession.. Arnav’s Possession!)
And they smiled at each
other..
FLASHBACK
ENDS
Daima laid her hands on
Khushi’s shoulders, and she turned from the swing chair.. Her cheeks wet with
tears, Khushi instantly hugged Daima as she cried her heart out...
Khushi (crying out): Mein
uski amaanat nahin sambhar payi Daima... nahin sambhar payi.. Mein Dehradun
vapaas nahin jaana chati Daima.. Uska samna nahin karsakti mein.. wo har par
marjayega iss sachayi ke saat.. (I couldn’t take care
of his possession Daima... couldn’t take care of it.. I don’t want to go back
to Dehradun Daima.. I can’t face him.. He’ll die every moment with this
truth..)
With a heavy heart, Daima
caressed Khushi’s hairs and said..
Daima: Aise nahin kehte
Khushi bitiya.. Chalo hamare saat.. ham bhagwan se pratna kalte hain.. ke wo
sab kuch tik kardo.. tumhari aur apne arnav ke zindagi mein vapaas khushiyan
leker aaoo.. Chaloo.. (You should not say this Khushi
my child.. Come with me.. we’ll pray to god to make everything alright.. to
bring happiness back into your life and your Arnav’s life.. Come..)
And she grabbed Khushi’s
arms, helping her to go towards the small temple in the room..
*****
Holding on to the cane, the
old lady walked towards the ringing phone.. And as she finally picked up the
receiver...
Old lady: Hello!... How are
you my son?.... Oh, don’t worry bunny, my son.. I’ll check him out!
The old lady hang up the
phone and worriedly walked down the corridors of Hope orphanage.. She reached
the last door and breathed a sign of relief as she saw the lock opened.. She
pushed open the door and felt her heart breaking into pieces.. Though this was
a scene she was used to.. but the pain was as fresh.. Hope orphanage was
completely renovated by Arnav Singh Raizada.. all rooms, play areas, gardens,
everything... except.. that one area behind that locked door.. And whenever
this door was unlocked, Maria, the head of Hope orphanage, knew that her kid,
her Khushi was in pain.. And how she knew that? Arnav! Arnav was at his worst
state! Tears welled up her eyes as she stared at the young man.. asleep with
dried tears on his cheeks on a very old bed which was once Khushi’s bed..
Important
Note
I know some of you might be
disappointed as this was not what you expected.. But this is it! The Arnav in
my story is different.. I believe that lots of people mistake infatuations,
liking and lust for love... But falling in love, getting married one year after
and applying for a divorce 5 years later, This is not what love is! So in some
ways Arnav and Khushi in I possess you depicts true love which can be found one
in a million.. Love is sacrifice.. to care for each other no matter what it
takes.. to hold each other’s hands during the worst situations.. And a slight
touch is enough to heal the deepest wounds!
this fff is soo gud...its awesome...so different...i luv your arnav.....i was kind of fed reading lusty arnav coz of his painful past..........this is soo unique....soo much luv....soooo pure.....plsss update soon....iam sure even though khushi lost her possession in front of arnav's eyes she'll still be pure...hope he find her soon...
ReplyDeleteOMG! awesome...............was really moved by the way you portrayed the emotions through this FF, plz do update soon..................love to read them.
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